A Second Try That Didn’t Work Out

Back in September, I applied for a job opportunity and got rejected at a very early stage because I couldn’t clearly explain what the simple present tense was. That moment hurt more than I expected, especially because I’m studying to become an English teacher. I remember thinking, How am I supposed to teach English or even graduate if I’m already in my fourth year of college and I can’t explain such a basic grammar topic? That thought completely shattered me. I felt embarrassed, discouraged, and questioned my own abilities. Still, earlier this month in December, I decided to try again. By God’s grace, I passed the initial stage, even when the recruiter was clearly skeptical. I truly believe God was the one who gave me that opportunity. The process included a one-month training program, but I couldn’t pass the first week because the required score was 7, and I got a 6. When they asked me to leave the session, I felt deeply sad. However, this experience taught me something very important: I wasn’t fully prepared for that role yet. The feedback I received helped me identify areas I need to work on especially my energy, facial expressions, and overall presence. Since the job involved working with children, they needed someone who is constantly expressive and visibly enthusiastic. By nature, my face is more serious, and if I’m not smiling or nodding, it can look like I’m not interested, even when I am. Despite the pain, I’m choosing to trust God’s timing. This experience didn’t destroy me it revealed what I need to improve. My advice to anyone going through rejection is this: be grateful for every opportunity you receive. If you stay angry or bitter, it will only harm you inside and slowly turn you into a negative person. Gratitude changes your perspective. Even when you’re rejected, be thankful, work on your weak areas, and remember that with God’s help, growth and improvement are always possible.